babydoll rollback the days and nightmare xxx

march 2 2012

22.26

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i am not a writer,but i love to write

i am not a painter but i love to paint

i am not a photographer but i love to take pictures

a lot of things springs to mind, was thinking of all sorts
and it makes me wonder what we think of ourselves and trying to do as much even if we are not born
to be such ...

yesterday i woke up crying my heart out...
a terrible dream that i had and it somehow crept its way until i woke up...

He wasnt there,i looked everywhere...
went to find Him in that special place where we were in November...

walked the lanes,got tired ,went back to the station ...
sat there cried away all the hurt i felt inside ...

woke up crying,i felt terrified...
My Darling had gone,with out saying goodbye

it was a dream...
but i cant understand what it means...

i am so glad that it is just what it is..
but i now know what it feels if that time will come...
omg how awful i think it will be...
for me

rolling back the days,
sat reading all our old love letters sent to each other...

conversations of two people
exchanging feelings,thoughts
i smile...

yes we love each other,

i was told that from how we met we are a thing of fiction..
but we live in reality and some feels happy to know
that there are people like us who live it ...

its funny how thigns really turn out,sometimes even i is surprised
that it is how it is now...

people seem to be interested on how it is to live it...
but there is no secret.

i found that there are a lot of us in this world who were not as lucky as me...
women still looking for the right arrangement,for a long time and never found it

men looking for someone and unfortunately there are not many like me
who can love and understand how it is to be in this situation...

but yes,there is love
it is far in between,but it still exist.
wherevere we go..

i was just lucky He found me

yesterday,i asked his thoughts,
He answered me with true answers to maybe how we became how we are now...

what is the secret to it?

but for me the answer is only one...
that secret is,,,

all locked up inside one Man xxx